seventeen, i was
seventeen, when i met you
seventeen times you
broke my heart

seventeen stab wounds
seventeen, a prime number
perfect conclusion
seventeen

seventeen years since
i tried to leave here, but you
nailed me down with knives
and bled me

seventeen dreams each
night, then i wake up always
and forever, still
seventeen

In case anyone has had a common sense bypass, the blood and gore effects in this are created with MAKE-UP and are NOT REAL. Obviously. If you want to make your own gory face, the materials used here are:

Texture on and around lips: Make-up International Liquid Latex
Nosebleed and blood on mouth and cheek: Kryolan Fresh Scratch Blood Effect
Skin tone and shading: Ben Nye Death Wheel
Blood in eye: Kryolan Eye Blood

Sometimes it's fun to play with make-up and imagine troubled spirits and the source of their discontent. It's strangely therapeutic. The lighting is from a flashgun on the hotshoe. The face in the picture is mine. As much as it's driving me crazy not being well enough to work in the studio or be involved in photoshoots with other people at the moment, I am really enjoying using limited kit and shooting at home while the cats give me strange looks.

Smug cat is smug. Pablo was posing for me, which he doesn't do often. I was lying on the bed reading and my camera was beside me so I quickly took some photos before my little model got bored.

This is probably the only time you'll hear/see these words from me, but the on-camera flash actually did something desirable. I do love the kitty shadow on the wall.

Fun in the studio with models AJ and Sasha, styled by Starving Artists Creative Services. The spiders were 99p for 4 and I can never resist a creepy bargain. You can see the rest of the photos on ViolentlyBeautiful.com, here.

I had a shoot with the lovely Morrigan last weekend and this is my favourite photo from the day. The rest of the photos are floating in the ether waiting to go live on Zivity and I'll post a link here once that happens.




Today (ok, technically it was yesterday, although it may have been after midnight) the RockstarVanity Photography 2010 Calendars are released for sale exclusively through deviantART. The calendars are...

Beauty: Fashion and Expressive Portraiture
Lust: Fetish, Nude and Alt Glamour Photography
Fear: Atmospheric Bloodless Horror Photography
Evil: Graphic and Gory Horror Photography

I hope everyone is having a great Halloween weekend, whether you're dressing up and going out or lounging at home watching scary movies and munching popcorn.

In the midst of the launch of Sublime Rush, everything else was put on the back-burner for a bit, but now my life, work and brain have returned to normal(ish) and I'd like to show you some of the pictures Kitty and I created in the studio recently.



That one is a preview of the Morning Haze set, now viewable on ViolentlyBeautiful.com. You can get a print of that picture here, in Fotki. There's a whole heap more alt glamour and modern pin-up prints in this folder on Fotki.



A couple more shots from the same day. The one on the left involves super-cute heart-shaped pasties covered with rhinestones (from Ann Summers) and you can find it on Flickr and deviantART, and prints are available from Fotki and deviantART. The one on the right is a preview of a set we shot for Zivity, and you can find it on Flickr and deviantART, and buy prints from Fotki and deviantART. The Zivity set isn't up yet but I'll post here as soon as it goes live. In the meantime, if you're on Zivity or are going to join, come find me and say hi. My username there is (surprisingly enough) RockstarVanity.